Why the hell am I doing this? And who am I doing this for? Why do I have to live by the superficial standards of the community? Why should I strive to be like everybody else? Do I really want to be a slim twink? Or a muscle jock? Would I be truly happy when I’m finally seen as datable or fuckable by other men? I hated facing the fact that I must go through more pain and self-torture and self-restrain to become this “better” version of myself. I constantly felt like I wasn’t doing enough and had to do more. However, I realised that I wasn’t happy at all.
Of course there was this sense of achievement. And who likes constantly count calories anyway? Nonetheless I managed to drop over 30lbs in a couple of months. I just ain’t the sporty and athletic sort. I didn’t become a gym rat or an enthusiastic health freak. Sadly, I didn’t come to enjoy the process. I stopped eating unhealthy stuff like fast food and tried to keep my meals plain. I would hit the treadmill for at least an hour every day, before moving on to the weights and the machines. I started on a strict diet and a serious workout regime. So two years ago I told myself that I should try to slim down, to go back to how I was. Over the years, I just got bigger and bigger, and before I knew it, it’d become so hard for me to find dates, even random hook-ups.
When I was in my early twenties, I was actually 40–50lbs lighter. And even now when I think back, it still hurts a little.ĭo I like what I see in the mirror? Well, yes and no. Well, I know the guys who were straight forward with me didn’t mean harm they’re just being honest with their expectations. Is it because I’m Asian? Is it because of my size? But now I just can’t be bothered anymore. see a full-body picture of me, they either ghost me or openly tell me that I’m “not their type.” In the past I would probe further. However, it’s difficult for me to get dates because of my body size. Hi, I’m an average-looking, twenty-something gay guy who hopes to get into a long-term relationship. I have no idea whether the wife knew or not, but certainly the arrangement suited him very well.“What am I to do with this big, smooth, yellow-skinned body?” Only later as an adult when visiting my parents one-time, did the subject come up about this couple/enigma did I learn the truth: my father and the husband, who travelled frequently for the same company, had this to say in rememberance, "Why that old Son-of-a Bitch- he never wasted ANY opportunity on trips to bed as many women as he could." Of course everyone asked, "WHY did he stay with HER?", but at least from the outside ( or my childish perception) they had a rock-solid relationship. Supposedly in college, I had heard my mother comment once they were once madly in love, and both were driven by their Keen intellects and passion for Social Justice Causes ( yes they were Boomers). While the husband was moderately good-looking, the wife was not only morbidly obese, she was frequently run-down, bitter, and nastily sarcastic because of problems with the couple's children which only added to her un-attractiveness. (Good friends of my parents that we often socialized with ).
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Plus for special occasions chances are the plain jane can pretty up enough to make Daddy proud. I think a bigger percent of average women have a winning personality compares to the beauty queen. Str8 guys seem to often choose the path of least resistance.įinally, a lot of plain girls are just nice and feel domestic like their Mamas. So it does creat a situation where some hot women are not in the game. Further complicating matters is that str8 men aren’t known to communicate very well. I’ve also known beautiful women who got no dates because dudes were too intimidated. This one cute girl is dating my one friend and fucking the other because the latter’s body was turning her on. They were well aware of their looks and the effect they had on men, so they played the field just like str8 guys do looking for an upgrade. On the flip side of the coin, I’ve known some beautiful women who were. It was tiring even though she always discouraged them. I once dated a beautiful girl (I never could accept that she really liked me) and guys were always trying to hit on her. Dating Beautiful women can be a lot of work.